You guys ever had those days where you want to sulk in a bucket of ice cream? I’m not talking about driving to Dairy Queen, ordering your favorite blizzard and eating it in the car while listening to some awful, sap music. I’m talking–> going to Kroger, buying the biggest bucket of ice cream you can find, putting on your fat pants, sitting on the couch with a soup ladle and not getting up until that whole dang bucket is gone…Yeah, me neither ;). Life has continued to throw us curve balls over here in our adventures in the Haddix house. At one point the frustration turned to laughs as I tell people I think life is just waiting for my melt down. The largest tub of ice cream melt down.
One morning as I was making animal noises and chasing around my nearly two year old (I have NO idea how we have a TWO year old.) he tripped, fell down, and on came the waterworks. If you have a two year old or have had a two year old you know how dramatic these waterworks can be. Screaming with alligator tears rolling down the cheeks. Almost instantly he leaned in for a momma-fix-it kiss. I kissed it, he brushed it off and we were back to running around. In these moments I thought, Wouldn’t it be nice to think like a little person. Then it hit me. We can think like a two year old if only we choose.
I’ve told plenty of people in the last few months to find the good in everyday. Recently I had to take a step back and listen to my own advice. It’s so easy to get consumed in the things that go wrong, the anxiety that builds up from day to day. It’s easy to get caught up thinking about the what-ifs and the what-are-we-going-to-do-whens. But people, while we are thinking about all this, we are losing time chasing our kids around the kitchen island or throwing a rope with our dogs in the backyard or reading that book we’ve been trying to finish for months.
During one of the hardest things we have had to do as a couple these last 11 years, as I was holding my husband’s hand fighting back tears standing next to his grandfather’s grave site, I looked up and saw our cheering section, our fan club, our people standing across from us. On the hottest day of June these people were there sweating in their dress pants and dresses with us. I even saw a couple of them wiping tears from their face, too. I then realized it’s okay to cry because in these moments, if we just look up, our people are there with us. Our people are feeling our pain and are ready to fight the battles with us.
Lean on these people when you don’t know what else to lean on. Find what makes you happy and do it as much as you can. Write down the feelings, talk them out, don’t keep them to yourself because you’ll find you’re not the only one. So today, I hope whoever you are reading this, I hope you know you’re not alone. You may be dealing with a bunch of crap, but you’re not doing it by yourself. All you have to do is look up and I bet you’ll find someone there to help and remind you to take your own advice when needed. If you can’t look up just yet, I hope you can at least find the good in today.